I remember sitting in the doctor’s office when I was 5 months pregnant with you, listening to the doctor tell me there was a possibility that you would be deformed, mentally retarded, or die within the womb. I remember leaving that office crying and feeling so ill from this news that I almost passed out in the parking lot. I remember shutting down for the rest of that day…. More than anything, I wanted you to be healthy.
I was just a baby Christian at the time. I was still testing out the waters of faith and had little experience with putting my trust in God. But as I put my head on my pillow that night, I knew I need to do just that… trust God. So, I prayed – unlike anything I’d ever prayed before – I prayed from my heart, completely broken, and scared to death. I thanked God for you, for His love for you and me, and trusted Him to take care of you. I told Him I knew He knows me better than I know myself and knows what is best for me – even if that means giving me a child with physical or mental disabilities. For the first time, I trusted Him completely with something that was totally out of my control. I fell asleep praying…
I spent the next several months being monitored. I had to go in ever week to be measured, have your movement checked, and have an ultrasound.
And all the while, I was at peace. God did that for me.
A week before you were due to be born, the doctors began to get concerned about your growth. They thought you were too small and wanted to take you before it was too late. So, I went in to the hospital to be induced.
All the while, I was at peace.
A few short hours later, I held you in my arms for the very first time. You were perfect and SO beautiful!
The nurses gave you a 5 minute apgar of 10! Very few babies score a perfect 10. The nurses told me they almost never give out 10’s! But you were THAT healthy!!
God did that for me.
I believe it was His way of rewarding me for trusting Him. He was showing me that He was truly in control.
Now, every time I look at you, I am reminded of God’s faithfulness to those that love and trust Him.
HAPPY 9th BIRTHDAY, AVERY!!!!
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!